Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Rainbows and Unicorns

There all comes a time in our lives where something big hits us and we just lie there on the floor. Sometimes it's a baseball, sometimes it's an avalanche, and sometimes yet, it's not even physical.

Large snowballs are scarey, really.


Depression

Whether you like it or not, there are times in your life where you'd be tempted by the sweet scent of depression. That's right! Anyone would be smart enough to avoid dangerous and harmful things if the thing itself was dressed with hazard signs and telling you that it was going to eat your brains.

They probably wont be glowing red either


You see, depression doesn't waltz around with a tag that says "I'm going to make you miserable!". No, it lures you into a comfortable false sense of security with the sweet taste of procrastination. There's nothing miserable with avoiding what you need to do and replacing it with games, internet or shopping. Then, this evil reincarnate throws low ball at you. "Shit," you begin to think. "What the fuck am I doing with my life? I'm just wasting away." But that's OK, you'll continue down this spiral. Slowly but surely, it creeps up on you like a massive blanket and swallows you. At first, you feel invincible, nothing can hurt you, just like Tobey Maguire from Spiderman 3.

Eventually, you may even learn to control the depressive aura to fight crime!


Unfortunately, that doesn't last. You soon realize that if you continue down this path, you'll be a hobo. That furthers your depression and you begin to combat it.



Then you realize that even the one who claimed that he'll always be spiderman couldn't fight against it and eventually got replaced. Finally aware of your impeding doom you have no choice but to continue to procrastinate. Everything around you begins to be seemingly against you. At first, these accusations are some what excusable...

How dare the computer!


...but then they start to become ridiculous...

Not only was it empty, it breaks easily too.


...and downright stupid.



It is only when you start seeing how ridiculous you sound that you try to pick yourself off the floor and force yourself to watch hippies in a feeble attempt to make yourself feel better. It doesn't work. It'll only make you want to shoot yourself.

Even in Diablo3 where you kill demons and zombies, there are unicorns and rainbows to mock me.

Thankfully though, you'll eventually get the wind knocked out of you long enough by depression for your system to reboot. When that happens, you can laugh at its face. Why? Because screw you depression that's why. Unlike Tobey Maguire, I don't do those weird self dancing portrayals in the rain.

I won't be Tobey Maguire



-Pui.x

5 comments:

  1. I'm glad you're feeling better... We all have that stage in our lives...

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  2. All those ups and downs in life. Just that picking yourself up again is the biggest step and hardest to accomplish. Once you're there, hold yourself up and you're a-okay :]
    Love your drawings as always, hope you're feeling better *hugs*

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  3. Large snowballs are possessed!! Mhmm, depression is easy to fall into. I actually find it hard to be naturally happy, I'm just always ... normal? HAHA I love the Spiderman reference, he was so douchey in that film. But it's true.. your confidence peaks as depression settles in and before you know it, it consumes you and you're feeling down and very pathetic :c Yes, how dare the computer crash on you! We always tend to point the finger elsewhere to avoid everything. HAHAHAHAHA Mr Cup just couldn't handle it anymore and took the plunge. I believe 'Fuck you sunshine and colours' would make a really good title for some emo pop song tweens could listen to, you're onto something there Pui! Unicorns are freaky fellows, they just wanted to follow you to Candy Mountain. YES! SCREW DEPRESSION. It doesn't get you anywhere and it's incredibly energy-consuming. Great post :)

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  4. Hahaha! I'm sorry but
    that was so funny
    written with Toby M.
    and such...

    Sometimes I spin
    at the same
    procrastinating spiral
    like yours really o:

    I hope you feel better!
    xx

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  5. i haven't been in the situation but big snowballs do seem terrifying, im glad you're feeling better and picked yourself up :)

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